bangungot ng buhay ko..

it all happened May 30, 2004 (supposedly 1 year and 2 months na kami!).. 6am, the phone rang.. d number appearing sa caller id is:6464478; sinagot ko.. no one answered. 2nd tym around, hinihangan lang nia ako. i got pissed off, the 3rd tym he called, 1st ring palang sinagot ko na.

"HELLO SINO BA TO?!!" nobody answered for 5seconds, then i think it was passed to another person, then sabi,"ah hello, pwede po makusuyo kay tintin?"
"CNO BA TOH?!" i asked.
"hello, pwede po kay tintin?"
"E CNO NGA TO!" hello namn 6 am in the morning! cno ba hindi mapipiss off sa twag ng ganun kaaga tapos hindi magsasalita!!
"pwede po makausap c tintin, kaibigan nia to."
"ano?! kaibigan, e cno ka nga?!"
"c odie po.." then suddenly after saying his name pinindot ang plunger!

Odie, isang friend ni mr. francois concepcion a.k.a. POI/POY/FRANCO...

ok, so ayun.. my schedule for this day, may 30, 2004 is to attend a yfc gathering, a covenant orientation. supposedly i will go to mcdo ever commonwealth aroung 7-7:30am.. sa vista real venue.. and then choir sa church after..

after the phone call, they tried calling again,mejo kinabahan na ako, alam ko c poi yun. i removed na the phone cord and slept again. nanghihina pa ako. puyat ako e.

mga more or less 30 mins after, someones knocking at our door,nagising ako dun.. pinakinggan ko, i was thinking anjan namn c manang bakit may kumakatok.. un pala 2log pa sia. then narinig ko na voice nia. c poi yun.. patay! tumayo me sa may hamper, beside d door, fixed myself, then he opened my door d2 sa room like hell. anlakas! he didnt see me since nasa may likod nga me ng door. "NASAN C TIN!!" he asked..

sabi ni manang, "anjan lang, bakit ba poi?"

i tell you he was raging like hell, galit na galit.. still lumabas ako to face him.. with my sleepy eyes, fixing my hair with my fingers,"ano ba yan?! o bakit?"

then suddenly he held me sa neck and pushead me inside the room, napahiga me sa bed ko.. he locked my room. ambilis nia.. then pumatong sia sakin, i was trying to stand up, nagpupumiglas ako, but he started punching me on my head, so hard, so hurting.. "pocha poi, ano ba yan, tama na pls nasasaktan ako!" i was trying to be calm coz hindi ko ineexpect ang lahat ng ito..

"HINDI PUTANGINA MO! HAYUP KA.. NILOKO MOKO, ANO PA GUSTO MO HA?! MASAYA KA HA.. " while saying those words, he werent really contented yet and punching me all over again..

i screamed as hard as i can, nakita ko ung door, someones trying to open it from the outside.. fuck, nilock nia.. no one can enter my room! im fucking dead.. pero kahit na, i know may mga kapitbahay who would help. i screamed at the top of my voice, "MANANG!!! MAAANNAAAANG!!! i heard her, screaming too, "TIIN!"

hindi ko na alam anong ggawin ko, masayado sia malakas, him on top of me, hindi ko sia kaya, sobrang gigil na gigil sia, he's yelling at me, hinahawakan nia yung jaws ko, and when i yell sinusupalpalan nia mouth ko para d me makasigaw..

then thank god, manang was able to open the door! grabe, u guys should really have a spare key outside ur room.. i wasnt able to think about it. naiisip ko lang furious he was and fierce in punching my head. ang pumasok sa isip ko, shet, kakagaling ko lang.. damn, dont fucking hit my head noh! i suffered my sickness for more than 2years because of head trauma, then now susuntukin nia! pakshet talaga!

anyway, ayun, inaawat ni manang c poi, umalis ka, grabe talaga ang feeling nung nakawala ako.. if manang wasnt able to think of the spare key and hindi nabuksan ung door malamang duguan me if ever na maklabas pa nga ako sa room ko.. im so thankful tlaga..

habang inaawat ni manang, nagpumiglas pa rin sia and even c manang, i know in one way or another nasaktan din nia coz of his force. tapos eto na, pumasok c odie. shax, may kasama sia! whew! it was really a relief.. odie held him close, hinawakan, niyakap. para lang lumayo sakin, bitawan ako and all. nilabas sia ni odie.. he startd cursing all over again.. "PUTANGINA MO HAYUP KA.. U FUCKING BITCH! PUTANGINA MO!! O ANO HA, ANO BAKIT D KA MAGSALITA, pare bitiwan moko, nag-uusap kami"

hello, he said all this things in our sala, e 6am palang nga nun, so nasa labas ng haws lang namin ang mga maid sa kabila, ung driver and my ninong who was a lawyer.shax, sobrang hiyang hiya ako sa scandalong gingawa nia.. lumabas ako and sumilip sa labas, i saw ninong papasok na ng haws.. gosh, he saw and heard everything! til now wala akong mukhang maiharap sa mga kapitbahay.

nakiusap c odie, "tin, pwede bang sa loob nalang tayo ng room mo, promise hhawakan ko c poi, nakakahiya sa mga kapitbahay."

"tara."

still, hyper parin sia, gigil na gigil.. malakas man sia, sori but odie is bigger,fit and stronger, and taller of course! kahit hawak na sia ni odie, naabot pa nia hair ko! hinila nia and sinuntok uli ako.. i cant help, ang sakit! tinulungan nlang me ni manang to remove his hands.

ihiniga sia ni odie sa kama and dinaganan.. odie said:"pare, nakiusap ka sakin, ang sabi mo pupuntahan mo si tin, sabi mo kaya mo (HE WAS DRUNK KC. FYI!), sinamahan kita, pero pare wala sa usapan ang mananakit ka. pare babae yan, naiintindihan kita, mag-usap kayo wag yang nananakit ka.

"hindi e, pare d ko matanggap, yang putanginang bitch na yan.. niloko ako.. ano ha masaya ka na ha! natutuwa ka!" dinuduro nia ako while minumura nia ako ng PI. "o ano, d ka magsalita, u fucking bitch, pokpok ka hayup ka, ano gusto mo ako pa magbenta sayo sa mga kaibigan ko e.. ano ha, gusto mo benta kita?! hayup ka, putangina mo!!!" paulit ulit lang..

then nag-usap kami, napaluha nalang ako sa mga nangyayari sa kanya.. i kept on asking him. "poi, bakit ka nagkakaganyan? wats happening?" hindi talaga nia magets kung baket ko sia binreak. and d nia matanggap.. all the while akala ko ok kami..

sa laht ng nagbabasa nito, i can say that i have my conviction that i just did the right thing of breaking up with him. cguro ang mali ko lng is to break him up 2days before his board exams,it was really very unintentionally.. inisip ko, after na ng board, we'l talk, bka magbago pa isip ko.. baka nabibigla lang ako.but not, pinilit niako to speak up that very day.. pinagtatawanan man ng ibang tao, pero the truth is we broke up, we ended everything with a prayer.. yun ang pinakahawak ko na, ok kami, and i really admired him for that. we have set our promises to each other and all. pero mali pala ang lahat..

the day b4 the exams, i was really praying hard to the Lord na sana pumasa sha.. coz, kahit yun man lang mabawasan ang galit sakin ng mga realtives nia. at iniisip ko, magiging defense mechanism nia ito para mas lalong magpursige na ipasa to, to prove that he could do good.. mapatunayan na mali ang iniisip ng mga kamag anak nia na hindi nia kaya.. i asked the help of my friends to pray for him..

sinisisi ko talaga sarili ko wen i knew the results, markus made it! c poi hindi nakasabit.. it really hurts! i cried all night, feeling ko nanira ako ng buhay.. but through my friends support, niliwanagan nila ang isip ko na i dont have to blame myself if he wasnt able to pass the said board exams.. wel maybe yes i was part of why hindi sia pumasa, but it was his life.. it was up to him.. napaka IMMATURE kung sakin daw isisisi ang lahat.. and responsibility NYA yun dba.. HINDI SIA DAPAT MAGPAKAAPEKTO d2, and as iv said, dapat ginawa niang defense mechanism ang lahat, and if he really loves me tried his best to pass the exam.. if he wasnt really going to pass, well maybe yun talaga ang itinalaga ng tadhana.. in the first place, he wasnt really able to review that much, alam nia yan.. talagang support kelangn nia.. kung nagkaroon sia ng time b4 to review and have become focused na review lang dapat at wala nang iba, he coould've made it, no other chnces, kaya nya yun alam ko, pero hindi talaga sguro ngyon..

nwei, ths was the worse unforgettable thng that ever hppened in my life.right now, 4 ang bukol ko, 2 sa noo (which really damn hurts!),isa sa likod ng head, and one on the upper side of my left ear... then may galos sa may left cheekbone ko, and sugat sa labi.. thats ol iv got and some mga sakit sa mga buto buto ko.. for me its fine na.. malaki na ang pinagbago, gumaling nako for me.. kaso nilalagnat me.. sana lang talaga my sickness wont be back again.. sana naisip nia yun..

june 1 na po.. sana tigilan nia na ako.. tigilan na nila ako.. il be leaving na talaga.. i dont want to stay here pa.. ang laki talaga ng effect nito sakin..they still keep on calling me and ol, ayoko na.. pwede niang sabihing quits na kami, dahil sa ginawa nia sakin, kaya pls, bear with me.. sana talaga matapos na ang lahat.. ayoko na ng mga tanong pa.. tama na.. basahin nio nalang. salamt sa oras na binigay nio in reading this..